I keep thinking about writing to you and asking about few things... What I have in mind is a very interesting “session” with my sister and mom (few months ago) and then with my husband (about a month ago).
1. I was particularly curious about what I saw in the mirror. My figure was spit in two, left eye was of hazel colour, right – of blue. I had an impression that my left side did not get along with the right. It was difficult even to look at myself. I had an impression of two beings living inside of me. The integration happened when I was folding my hands in prayer or when I danced. My eyes were turning blue then, in the “reconciliation”. The face, however, was quite tired and sad... It was difficult to smile at myself... Though I found relief in the expression of concentration and seriousness. This duality scared me a bit... I associated the left side in particular with the “devil”. Strange... How to interpret it? I must add, that my eyes are usually blue.
2. After that I was showering my husband with questions about what to do in my life, how to find my own mission. He turned out to be my “guide” even though my intention was to guide him. J. gave me a piece of paper saying, that I could create my life freely. Gorgeous pictures, colourful, spinning circles began to appear on the white sheet... I also wrote on it three verbs: to sing, to dance, to write... I asked, too, if I was talking to God at that moment and he answered: “Yes”. Is there God in every one of us? How beautiful! And I had thought I was of a little meaning...
3. I also saw my own apartment and felt that my children did not feel quite well in this place.
4. The session with my sister has been more “global”, if I may say so. I was surprised to find out my sense of humour, which I don’t use on the daily basis. I also saw the windup of authority, of people’s status. I felt that I could do everything, I could create my life at my choice. We understood each other without words. On the other hand, I saw mom in the mask of blue light. My sister saw this mask as well. The true mom came as a surprise to me as I perceive her differently on the daily basis. By the way, I also saw my husband changed by the blue light. His face looked more dignified. I had an impression that he was a “messenger” or an angel, who met me for a reason. I also noticed how he returned to his role and this was very funny. The reflexion crossed my mind then: “if he only knew who he was”... What, in your opinion, this blue light seen on people’s faces was?
5. I remembered one more thing. After the “session” with my husband we went to the mall. What was happening there was just extraordinary. I had an impression of seeing in people whom they truly were, their dual, split faces, their souls, their real faces. When somebody looked at me I had an impression that here gazed the soul of another human, passing certain information on to me, guarding me. What more, I had an impression of knowing some of them, of having met them before. I didn’t “click” with some of the people, but it was beautiful as well.
I sat on the chair at the shoe store... Some guy sat next to me, trying on the shoes. I felt like reading his mind and him reading mine. They were not our “everyday” thoughts but the thoughts with no words (I cannot come up with better explanation). He was curious what I had to say. I felt to be having an influence on others’ lives. I don’t think it is so on the daily basis...
O, yeah! And one more important for me question of health. I asked my Angel: why can’t I be healthy? I just want it so badly. He answered that “I want it too much” and that I am healthy. I began to dance, forgetting my illness, I started to plan my life without it. It was so beautiful and motivating. :)
Ok. I think this is it about my more interesting experiences.
If anything was of interest to you and you feel, you would like to share your interpretation with me, I will appreciate it. Thank you in advance, warm hugs. <3 Warm greeting for your whole, outstanding family.
"Make it last for all of us and love yourself!"
- Byron Katie