Receiving the holy Ayahuasca drink I wanted to learn what it was to be enlightened, where was the place of this enlightenment, and how one could reach it. I knew that whatever I asked for will be shown to me so I kept maintaining and re-calling my intention. The first phase of the journey with the spirit of the holy plants began after vomiting all of the impurities. I started to be pierced by thousands of visions, taking place on the level of images, sounds, physical stimuli. All of these rushed along with a terrific speed. After time – and I just began to seriously doubt the existence of time – all kept becoming more saturated and accumulated within me. I felt the inertness of my body and a total faintness related to the oppressive, even crushing state I was in. I was laying on the grass, feeling a need to escape from people, in truth - to escape from this state of “all at once”. I kept grabbing the blades of grass tightly, as they were the last anchorage saving me from getting lost and from drowning in the chaos and infirmity. All was extremely tiresome and I couldn’t get out.
The lovely beings taking care of the travellers convinced me, or rather my tired body, to go back to the gazebo, to others. A pulsatory state of chaos was diminishing slowly, occasionally coming back like a sinusoid. And then, to my surprise, I realized that another wave of vomiting was coming.
Throwing up I was releasing myself from all of this heavy “load”. The next phase of journey began, I called it “shedding of the skin” (just like snakes do). I entered the state of purification and re-birth. I started to feel light and innocent. This process was accompanied by single tears, and then crying and sobbing.
Together with the divine Ayahuasca’s spirit I visited different beings, for example deceased and living family members, my friends. This journey was taking place beyond the time and reality, beyond the thoughts and mind.
Suddenly I felt that yet another visit will be exceptional. For I faced Adolf Hitler himself. I remembered - from the stories of my soul mates, Easy and Sylvia, who had experience similar encounter before, to look in his eyes with endless love and without any ideas about him.
In his face, instead of fierce expression of the tyrant, I saw a frightened child. I was standing in a front of him, being aware at the same time, that I was laying under the blanket by the side of other travellers. All of this was accompanied by my sincere tears. I told Adolf that I loved him, continuously staring at his eyes. How surprised I was, hearing the same! I was so overwhelmed then, that I began to cry even more. It was incomprehensible to me, that the man, named by the humanity to be the biggest criminal of all times, a true Satan’s personification - and in the same time a human being, whose mission was to purify many souls – could say such words from his heart. The other unbelievable fact was, that these words were spoken to me. There was no guilt nor desperation, I felt more lightness, love and oneness instead. Suddenly his silhouette began to shrink from the grown up man (still within the image of his outline) to the child. It was the act of release! Heavy burden of guilt became annihilated – I saw Adolf being free from this moment on!
Following were familiar situations being projected in the front of my eyes. Including even more familiar young man, whom I could observe from different angles. He was intriguing me so – not running away from the issue – I simply asked who he was. I received my answer momentarily: “It’s your present incarnation”. I felt as overwhelmed as during the encounter with Adolf. While travelling, I forgot about this one person. I was only a narrow, sparkling stream of a spirit. A pure, immaculate being. I noticed that I didn’t need any identity nor masks any more. They were like a fossil shell, veiling my divine Being in such a skilful way.
I opened my eyes and noticed, that the eternal, shining stream of a spirit – Me, is - as a matter of fact - surrounded by a body. So I moved on in it, like in vehicle, to the mirror to find the it’s me, human being – the temple of Spirit.
Instead of the thoughts and concepts often visiting my head before, I started to feel the eternal love, oneness, and gratitude. Time didn’t exist now, everything was a dream that we all were dreaming.
Delighting in these new discoveries, I watched an ant exploring my hand. I sent a ray of gratitude towards it with the message: “Lovely little creature, I thank you so much for being an ant instead of me, for taking it upon yourself.” I also thanked the grass for carrying my feet, I trusted it did it to the best of its ability. I witnessed the endless harmony of the Universe, being the Universe in the same time.
I also travelled with Ayahuasca’s spirit throughout my body, visiting its cells. There was no obstacles whatsoever to move from the artery to a space tunnel. I flew through it with the speed of light, perhaps even faster. Suddenly I decided, out of curiosity, to take a look behind. The speed somewhat increased and the stars - being now only radiating beams – were accumulating in one shining spot, instead of running away. Like a “Star Wars” scene, though not a single movie theatre, not even 10D could replace this experience.
I was saturated in a state of enlightenment and an absolute happiness, that we strive for every day. And we mistaken achieving our happiness for being a process, a path that we walk. When we reach out to get our goal, it moves away, as out of the spite. Why? Then I found out the simple mechanism, that was the key to succeeding. By saying “I want to be happy” we do, indeed, get what we want, because we are great creators. You ask for wanting a happiness, you receive it momentarily – you still want a happiness. It is enough, however, to state: ”I am lucky, I am happy” and then our desire manifests itself – we are happy. We mistakenly reach out, but the happiness is not something we need to reach for, something outside. We can find it totally elsewhere – in our Hearts.
As we know, the words carry on their energy and power, carry on certain vibration, but they are not capable of passing on the miracle I participated in, the miracle I was – and still am - a part of! Together with Ayahuasca’s spirit we go through the process of re-birth and a absolute healing. This incredible journey beyond the mind, time and third dimension was a portal leading me to the total self-knowledge, connection to Mother Earth, Father Cosmos, as well as one of the most beautiful – and the most unique, with no doubt experience of self-divinity!
I would like to whole-heartily thank Ayahuasca’s Spirit, truly hoping that she will take me for a cosmic journey not once, also my wonderful, loving: Parents, Easy and Luki, Sylvia and Grześ.
LOVE IS EVERYTHING FOREVER!"
"Make it last for all of us and love yourself!"
- Byron Katie